In Pursuit Of... 1/5/2019
I think it is safe to say that you are looking for Happiness. You may call it Success. Or Contentedness. You can call it whatever you want but it all comes back to this: you want to feel good. The absolute currency of being human is your feelings, thus: You do not base your life on what happens in it, but how you feel about what happens in it. (Ironically once you get that part right, the other great stuff will come - it's not a case of waiting for something to feel good about as most people think it to be). And as a human being you are incredibly capable. You have the capacity to love, to be intelligent and resourceful, to alter your destiny, and to be self aware. So given these abilities and the abundance of everything in the world, you should be able to shape that feeling into one that feels very good.
And you can do so with just a little guidance... and a small ship.
"Not all who wander are lost." JRR Tolkien